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小說2013-03-31 23:08

(GL)初戀

作者:謹☆

                                             戀愛.愛情什麼的,我一點都沒期待過
                                                我一直覺得人生只要有友情就夠了
                                                     愛情是其次的.是不重要的
                                           但..這想法在我升國二時有很大的轉變
                                              我戀愛了..我愛上同年齡.同性別的她
                                                       剛開始我只當它是仰慕
                                                            因為她優秀.上進
                                                        而我卻剛好跟她相反
                                                            我成績中等.消極
                                                      我剛開學時只對她有好感
                                                              不是一見鍾情
                                                只是覺得跟她當朋友一定會很有趣
                                                            但在不知不覺中
                                                           這份感情變調了...
                                   它從原本只是單純想當朋友變成了想獨占她的慾望了
                                                          我覺得我一定瘋了
                                                           同樣都是女孩子
                                                        為什麼會愛上她呢?
                                                     而當我察覺這份感情時
                                                        我已經快沒理智了
                                                滿腦都是跟她再一起的快樂時光
                                                  就再我懷著一點期待一點希望時
 
                                                                     她.....
                                                            將我打入地獄...
 
                                「百合?女女戀,那好噁。」妳無意間重重的傷了我
                           「誒?是嗎?還好吧..。」那一瞬間我想哭,但我忍下來了。笑著回應妳
                                                「妳喜歡這類東西喔?」妳挑眉問我
                                              「不討厭也不喜歡。」我只有苦笑的份
                                         誰知道我想跟妳一起變成百合故事中的女主角
                                             雖然過程坎坷,但種有雨過天晴的一天
                                                                      
                                                                      但...
                                                       我跟妳似乎跟那天沒緣
                                                 
                                                每當看到妳和我以外的人聊天時
                                                                我心中就不平
                                                            為什麼我不是男生?
                                                  為什麼我們明明看起來距離不遠
                                                               我卻碰不到妳
                                                                   為什麼...?
 
 
                                                               直到畢業那天
                                                           我始終沒能說出來
                           「那麼掰掰囉!要健康喔,還有同學會一定要來喔!!」一句極為普通的道別
                                                          在我心裡卻是不知所措
                                                               我應該要開心
                                                                 對!開心點
                                                至少不用在看著她和別人的背影了
                                                                 開..心..點..
                                                     「阿勒?眼睛進沙了。」
                                                                
                                                      我終於不用在裝了.....
                                                                我累了......
                                                        讓我大哭一場吧...
                                                    這場戲我演夠久了.........
                                                          讓我休息吧.....                                     
 
                                     眼淚不受控制的流下來模糊了妳的身影....

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